Schizophrenia: Laughter Blocks the Tears

I am sorry that the I have not bbeen around in here lately... I would be but now I have not been feeling all that great and so I am putting this here as it is vent art of how it is to feel like this right now. Pinkie is is very like me very much so and i automatically had drew her when i was not realize i was drawing at all. This this is when it you.. you being I.. feel like you are falliing apart but it feels like someone is been controllign my mind saying that I need to laugh when i don't feel like that i want to and i don't want to. I am very sorry of not being here for so very long but i am now and i am to try to be not ignoring everyone on here. love you. i am not meaning to ignnore everyone and ttheir work and and and all that i have to finish and everything i am very sure that all of the people you people are going to think i am an awful person for ignoring you and i'm very sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.